I wanted to say Thank you for bringing Nellie into my life, I was her foster mom, but really I was her Mom. I took her to her adoptions, and I hated watching her in that cage, but was hoping someone could give her a better home, than my small apartment. She would come back, so happy to see me, no one interested, just her and I . I began to wonder maybe she was supposed to be mine, but how could I keep her in my small apartment where no dogs were allowed. I would sneak her in, no one ever knew, she was such a good dog, curling up in her bed, or mine:) Chasing eachother in my apartment, her barking and hiding, and she and I would play . She came into my life when I seemed to be at my most lonely. Bounding onto my bed, and into my heart! Looking forward to seeing her when I came home, or taking her on her walks, or the park, she loved being in the car, always comforting to know she was right next to me! Her heart, soul, and precious sweet face was so needed in my life, she was a gift from god.
How could anyone not want her I thought, but she had a story, and I learned she was very loved and taken care of. I loved listening to her barks and snarls in her sleep, and she loved people, people all the time is what she wanted! Curling up between my friends and I, looking up at us in adoration:)
Then came the heart wrenching decision to leave LA, I could no longer afford to be there, but didnt want to leave Nellie, knowing she had been left in the past, but did not have a choice. I took her with me for 2 weeks up to Ben Lomond, a beautiful mountain community in Santa Cruz County, little did I know Nellie and I would spend the remainder of her life there. I kept her for 2 weeks and painfully had to give her back, I cried for a week straight, and hoped she would be adopted, hoped she was enjoying her life with wonderful people. I was wrong. I received a devastating call from Kai, one I will never forget. Nellie had cancer. She had maybe months to live. I cried for days, I felt like it was my fault, did I miss something, the thought of her little soul suffering killed me. She was like my kid, and I wanted her back.
I decided to take Nellie in the last of her time on earth, I thought she should be with me, and my mom. I am so happy I did. I decided I would do everything in my power to save her, I put her on a special diet, special earbs and vitamins, accupuncture, her holistic vet was amazing!9 Nellie started perking up about 3 days after coming, she was sooooo loved, we just loved her up! Her last 2 months were amazing! She started gaining weight, playing, going on walks in the forest, eating yummy food, she loved our neighbor Patty and would always pull me over to her door and scratch on it, she went to the beach, her daily walk in the huge grass park she loved, also our daily trip to the store for her beefstick! I was really happy she had that time with me, and she was doing well up until about November 9th, she was showing signs of slowing down, and my birthday was the 12th, and I noticed she was not as peppy, and had hard time sleeping, she only had 2 really bad days the whole time she was with me, so when I saw she wasn't doing well that week I had a feeling. I told her I am going away for my bday, I will be back sunday the 14th, hang on, I will be back. I almost didn't go, but had hotel reservations and couldn't back out. I came back sunday, she looked really bad, barely moving, my mom said prepare yourself, I knew she didnt have long, and was going to call kai that Monday the 15th to talk about options. I didnt have to. Nellie passed away in her sleep the morning of the 15th, she looked so peaceful, I always told her go when your ready, let me know when its time. She did. I felt a sense of peace, knowing she was not suffering, and she only had 2 really bad days, and I am glad no more than that. My mom and I did a ceremony over her body, and I thanked her for all the love and joy she gave to me, she was truly a gift from god, and she could go home now. I cried all day, and have been on and off. I had her cremated and spread her ashes in the Redwood Forest and her paw print in cement with her name. This is really hard for me, and I miss her so much, I only had her for 9months, but it might as well have been 9 years...I always thought she would get adopted, that she was someone else's, but she wasn't. She was always mine.